have been losing my temper very easily lately. it seems like i can’t even control my emotions at all these days. it pains me to see myself hurting people around who loves me. i really don’t mean to be like this. i’m really sorry. on another note, driving in the pouring rain today was traumatizing. i almost lost control over Ranger and sent us both to hell. life’s that fragile, i am that weak. sometimes i feel like everything is like a test to me but somehow, i’m just failing it all. it’s official; i’m really tired..