; living life backwards while moving forward



Wisdom (half) gone

2 out of 4 gone.

I’ve to say I had a good dentist but the whole experience was still too traumatising to go through a 2nd time. I’ve always heard that the most painful part is the jab and you’ll feel nothing at all after that. Well yes, partly true because no doubt there was no pain, throughout the process, I felt as if my jaws were being ripped apart! The top left one was out within 5-10s which I was amazed but the bottom right tooth killed me. Shall not repeat it again but yes, I still have 2 hidden wisdom teeth hidden in the top right and bottom left so pls, just stay hidden forever. Super groggy now but many thanks to le fiance for being there to chauffeur me home. Time for some well-deserved rest.


So much tears behind this bottle of perfume le fiancé bought for me 2 years ago; tears of anger, tears of sadness, tears of happy surprise and then tears of guilt. Can’t remember the last time I cried this much..
and it’s all because..

Last of 2015

I think the problem with me is that I don’t like to tell people what I’m thinking (or expecting) sometimes. Then I get upset when they don’t do what I’m expecting them to do. Then I keep it to myself and get sad by myself, with myself. I know we are all not effing mind readers, but I just don’t get why I am like that. Maybe that’s something to change in the coming 2016. So much to reflect on for the past year yet I haven’t found time and energy to really pen it down. Guess it’s not in my list of priorities after all. This year marks a couple of life-changing moments and I’m grateful for everyone who has been part and involved in my life. 

Last few hours of 2015 and am pissed with the persistent headache that has bugged me since last night. Then again, shall shake this negativity off me and welcome the new year with a smile! Hoping countdown at work with my happy bunch of colleagues would make me happier later. 

Anyhows, GOODBYE 2015 AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR 2016!


Sometimes, you just reach a point when you don’t know what you’re doing anymore. No idea what’s the purpose of doing anything at all. Guess I hit this point again today. Was trying to search for some inspiration and motivation when I came across this article – Read here.

Sometimes when you’re trying to reach a goal, it’s impossible to connect the dots where you currently are. Somehow you just have to trust in yourself, and have faith that you will reach your dreams, despite not having the slightest clue or perfectly laid out road to where you are going. Nobody can connect the dots looking forward; you only can connect them when you’re looking backwards. You have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in the future; you have to trust in something, whether it’s karma or destiny, but trusting yourself is the first step towards feeling inspired and having the motivation to move forward.

And that’s a paragraph that I find really true. So yup, shall trust. 


just happened to click into this link which I probably have long forgotten about. then I realised it’s been a while since I penned down any thoughts. I used to do it everyday on a separate blog during trainings. mostly on training updates but I guess I did include my daily thoughts every now and then too. well, that site is still pretty much classified though. and so are the thoughts.. doubt there’s anything even interesting for other people to read about anyway..

random thoughts..


It’s been quite a while since I did a personality test. Suddenly, I am curious if my Myers-Briggs Personality Type is still the same. So, I went to google and took the first test that came out. So spent a few minutes answering the questions to the best that I can and got my result as an INFJ. Now the problem is.. I don’t remember what I used to be. How clever, huh?

Anyway, is it true that our personality changes over time? Or do we stay the same even after years of living in this world, in this ever-changing life? I wonder…

Anger management

it’s true when they say never to say anything or argue in a fit of anger because you tend to be irrational and do things that you might afterwards regret. i have to admit i still have trouble managing my anger and will put words in a much worse state than i originally meant. for that, i’d like to apologize to whoever i’ve offended from my choice of words, especially the person i’ve quarrelled with today. and i have to admit social media is a very powerful tool which can let words/thoughts travel to thousand others within seconds. i’m sorry for any hurt i’ve caused in the course of my explosion of anger and pissedoff-ness. it’s the (chinese) new year soon. can’t wait for a new beginning, far from all the unhappiness!

PS: i just realised i’ve had another post with the same title. lol.


#throwback; sunset view from room in L.A last June

has it ever occur to you that life is all but a waiting game? everyday, we wait for the sun to rise, we wait for the bus to arrive, we wait for meals to be ready, we wait for time to pass, we wait for the night to fall, we wait for weekends to come… in short, there is definitely always something we are waiting for (to happen).

clock never stops ticking..

Hor-seh year

some snapshots of CNY this year.

we are onto the 11th day of the lunar new year already. family gatherings, reunions, catching up and whateveryoucallthose times were pretty much packed throughout. i’m glad we (boyf and i) managed to plan and spread the time out for 年初一 and 年初二 well enough to cover the activities going on for both side of our families though there was a little clash and hiccups along the way.

a different year.

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