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ongoing.

there’s so so much i’d love to update about because there’s so much happening around and all. i guess if there was a blogcraze phase, i most probably am far from over it already.. i can’t find/choose a picture that can best go with an entry, and eventually, i just give up writing on a post.

anyways, recently just attended the wake and crematory session of our lady boss. life’s so short and unpredictable, don’t you think? her departure kinda affected the running of the entire company. afterall, she’s someone so close. but here we are, still holding on. she’ll be missed, in fact, already is, greatly, by all who worked with her before.. i just hope my bosses will be fine and back again after a good rest.

break the spell.

hello February!

admitting is always the hardest thing to do. but denying ain’t a lot easier. as much as i AM over all of these, there are times when i can’t help thinking back. CNY is coming again in a few days’ time. last year was simple yet pretty unforgettable. foolish much but i actually do miss you. probably not in a romantic way already though; i just really miss the friend i thought i used to know. now, it just feel like someone who i don’t seem to know or even exist anymore, someone i’ve eventually came to lose..

taken for granted?

unilateral.

i sometimes wonder if i’d be a different person altogether if i hadn’t made several choices back then. sometimes i can’t figure if i’m drained out from my job, or is it that i’m just tired of life in general. whatever the case, i’m glad i am still alive and kicking; thankful for every morning i wake up to, still breathing, knowing i’m still real. you might have caught me while i’m feeling down, emo and all but trust me when i say i’m getting better. because i’ve braved the rain and next up, i know i’m going to see the rainbow.. ((:

beautiful.

i guess all of us have a role to play in life. but what is it that we really are? what if we’re in a role that’s not suited for us? do we still have to act like we’re in it? how tiring is it to live life like a drama? sometimes i really wonder which side of humans is real..

I guess it’s really true that the higher the expectation, the higher the disappointment. Well, it sucks when you weren’t expecting anything initially, but when you start expecting, the only return you get is disappointment. I realised that I always get it from people I kinda care about. Why is it that people I ain’t expecting anything from always bring me unexpected “surprises”? That’s the irony. Why do I, somehow, always have to learn things the hard way? So tired. Happy birthday to me. Happy indeed….

it’s supposed to be my favourite week of the entire year. it’s the festive season, it’s my birthday week. idk why i feel so empty, lost and unhappy still. is it whatever that has been happening around me? or is it just myself that hasn’t let go of all the unhappy and what-if thoughts? hate it when i’m like that. and the saying goes: “the grass is always greener on the other side..” maybe it just applied everywhere.

was scrolling through like 5000 over pictures on my facebook. realised how much people changed over the years. well, just looks only that is, change is inevitable. my girlfriends became prettier, boyfriends looking more mature. as for myself, i actually liked my look the best 2 years ago. maybe it’s just the hair. maybe the face. maybe i looked slimmer back then. or i thought i was prettier. maybe, ultimately, i was simply happier. somehow, there was less of complicated stuffs. and since they say smile is the best make-up one can ever have, maybe back then, i had the best make up although my complexion was crap. *laughs*

was randomly catching up with keith earlier on and he passed this quote from Albert Einstein to me: “”Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” well, so true but at times i actually define that action as stupidity. (: