been whining about busy August and how much i wished the month was over. however, as i flip though my organiser, i realised that September is going to be far more dreadful. excluding activities like the bash, gatherings or any upcoming birthday parties; project deadlines, all clustered together, are enough to kill. on top of all these, i’m looking at a depleting bank account which kinda brought back the already-forgone idea of finding a job into my head. i was supposed to be busy, be it for projects or any other academic stuffs. but, i never seem to spend any time on them. IF i could just utilise all this time i spent idling on working *$$$*, i can probably fulfill more of my unlimited wants and have lesser concerns each time i slash the card. and then again, doubting my ability to manage time and commitment, how do i go about forgoing the desires i can’t afford? what choices are to be made? and, what are the opportunity costs? HMMM…
i’m sinking in.
hate feeling so directionless and everything.
the mind’s in a whirlpool; simply can’t prioritize.
i’m not an emo kid but i feel like i could be one right now.
can’t wait anymore, please bring me away…
I HATE THE DUMBASS MIO THINGY! I SWEAR IT’S GETTING ON MY NERVES! ARGHH.
on another note, i want photos and videos my dear althea! ((:
have you, at some point of time, just feel like giving up totally? i’ve probably asked this question and feel this way too many times already. well, i almost broke down into tears again today, but the voice inside me encouraged me to hang on. call me incapable or simply lousy; i just can’t handle things or people i cannot control. that, you can also say, is my greatest fear in life.
the kids are adorable, and i love them. but at times (most of the times actually), they seem to go against me so much that i can’t take it. i try so hard but still, have absolutely no clues on what to do. then, i can only throw the job to my babes when they arrive which makes me feel like a complete irresponsible idiot. *sigh* so many times i want to just wash my hands off everything; yet as many times, i find myself walking back into the same old circle.
oh well… on a happier note, i’m quite done with the hateful OB essay! *grins* need to squeeze more brain juice to decide on which words to cut away though. at the same time, am contemplating if i should ask the lecturer to look through my essay tomorrow because i really DON’T feel like thinking of ways to improve it anymore, even if i HAVE to. haha..
happy birthday my homeland, SINGAPORE!
public holiday falling on a Saturday is quite a waste but we don’t have much of a choice, do we? anyways, tell me who in the right mind will reject a chance to go watch the actual NDP live?! guess i ‘m the only fool eh? hahaha.. but okay lah, given a choice again, i probably would still choose to stay at home cos that’s how lazy tsehwee is. hahah.. really sorry for backing out last minute!
oh well, a part of me wanted to finish up my OB essay but somehow or rather, the motivation to work has decided to go on holiday with the nation. i ended up spending half of my day on the hateful mio tv watching mobTV select. on a sidenote, the gloomy skies are clearing pretty fast, seems like NDP 2008 isn’t that screwed. ((:
alrights, decided to give the commendation award ceremony a miss because of MR project. the last minute changes and all; thanks to the lecturer for giving us such vital information only one week before the due date.
oh yes, ever seen such lousy results? hahaha.. was quite surprised to see all these while packing through my secondary school test papers. *laughs* oh well. anyways, this month is going to be a real busy one. reports, essays, movienation, MnP gathering stayover and even more outings! now, let’s not say we students have no life huh..
on a side note, happy birthday gabriel! am i not proud to be the first person to give him a “present”? hahahah.. i gave him the link to it at 12am and it’s now sitting on his blog. heh, actually i just took out some time yesterday to mess up his photo because it’s MY way of de-stressing. (:
i guess the issue with the mio box is related to the welcoming of mio TV into my house today. it’s a pretty funny thing actually. just a week or 2 ago, some random singtel guy came into my house to promote this dumbass SuperSaver Pack. knowing i’m quite a TV freak, daddy asked for my opinion on it. the only answer i gave him was, “daddy, DON’T waste money please..” but well, the next thing i know, that promoter guy walked out of my house, already clinching a deal. -.-”
KTV last evening with part of the gang as a post-birthday celebration for mike. the rooms in chevrons are really cosy, so much so that you can just fall asleep there. was too zombified to sing much, not to even mention drive. talking about it, it’s been way too long since i last drove..
currently overloaded with information yet again; i had to drag myself out of bed at noon with the word: ASSIGNMENTS unconsciously tagged in my agenda for the day. begged myself to work on the OB assignment but until now, nothing constructive has been done. wished i could just continue sleeping forever and never have to wake up again. right now, i probably can do with some screaming into the pillows or pulling some hair out of my head. *AHHHHHHH* anyways, time to prepare dinner. ciaos.
so much temptations. got reminded by dancing partner about my new year resolutions 2008 while talking to her last night. hahaha. so yea, i went back to my old blog and reviewed on them. i think the first one is pretty well done but for the second…… still trying, i guess?
talking about old blog, i kinda missed blogger; the numerous colourful blogskins i used to do up. wordpress is so restricted because i’m not that pro with CSS. *sighs* and talking about missing things, i missed my green hair too. okay, i meant strips of it. thinking of doing it again, only that this time, on my real hair.. HMMM….
headaches back for visiting again. but well, MR tutorial is down and OB is 5% done. not very productive for a stay-home day i know but at least, i’m getting started. taking a break now to get dinner cooked. till then.. (:
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