; living life backwards while moving forward


my first bouquet of flowers from the man; this birthday is, by far, the most memorable. although not 100% surprised, I am still very very touched that everything that I like (colors, numbers, etc) were incorporated into this special moment. and so, I¬†am on my way to becoming a MRS now! feels weird to change saying “my boyfriend” to “my fiance” but yup, I’ll get used to it! ūüėČ



Sometimes, you just reach a point when you don’t know what you’re doing anymore. No idea what’s the purpose of doing anything at all. Guess I hit this point again today. Was trying to search for some inspiration and motivation when I came across this article – Read here.

Sometimes when you’re trying to reach a goal, it’s impossible to connect the dots where you currently are. Somehow you just have to trust in yourself, and have faith that you will reach your dreams, despite not having the slightest clue or perfectly laid out road to where you are going. Nobody can connect the dots looking forward; you only can connect them when you’re looking backwards. You have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in the future; you have to trust in something, whether it’s karma or destiny, but trusting yourself is the first step towards feeling inspired and having the motivation to move forward.

And that’s a paragraph that I find really true. So yup, shall trust. 


just happened to click into this link which I probably have long forgotten about. then I realised it’s been a while since I penned down any thoughts. I used to do it everyday on a separate blog during trainings. mostly on training updates but I guess I did include my daily thoughts every now and then too. well, that site is still pretty much classified though. and so are the thoughts.. doubt there’s anything even interesting for other people to read about anyway..

random thoughts..


It’s been quite a while since I did a personality test. Suddenly, I am curious if my Myers-Briggs Personality Type is still the same. So, I went to google and took the first test that came out. So spent¬†a few minutes answering the questions to the best that I can and¬†got my result as an INFJ. Now the problem is.. I don’t remember what I used to be. How clever, huh?

Anyway, is it true that our personality changes over time? Or do we stay the same even after years of living in this world, in this ever-changing life? I wonder…

Year of the Goat

happy CNY from #quekyee! anyways, this year seems a little off from the usual CNY mood. maybe because of all the holidays I had prior to work, plus work just officially started. well, technically, I haven’t exactly started too but working shifts has been screwing with my body clock. gotta get used to it soon. (:

Anger management

it’s true when they say never to say anything or argue in a fit of anger because you tend to be irrational and do things that you might afterwards regret. i have to admit i still have trouble managing my anger and will put words in a much worse state than i originally meant. for that, i’d like to apologize to whoever i’ve offended from my choice of words, especially the person i’ve quarrelled with today. and i have to admit social media is a very powerful tool which can let words/thoughts travel to thousand others within seconds. i’m sorry for any hurt i’ve caused in the course of my explosion of anger and pissedoff-ness. it’s the (chinese) new year soon. can’t wait for a new beginning, far from all the unhappiness!

PS: i just realised i’ve had another post with the same title. lol.


that’s probably the one word we’ve said and repeated a million times throughout the last 3 weeks. by far, this has got to be the longest I’ve been away from home and without any communication devices at all. definitely a milestone in my life – trekking over 130km in 14¬†days, hitting the highest point at 3,210m a.b.sea, stepping on all kinds of shit along the way. it’s been a real fruitful journey and I thank the organisation for sending me on this¬†“mission” that I’d never have sign myself up for otherwise. being back to basics, seeing this beautiful country and at the same time, having the luxury to appreciate¬†life in it’s simplest form.¬†I must admit this has been one of the greatest 19 days of my life¬†and¬†a truly remarkable, eye-opening adventure.

Halfway there

been a really long while.. we’ve officially just crossed the halfway mark of our 36-weeks course. week 18 has just ended, in a blink of an eye. it was still like end of week 2 or 3 in my previous post. really soon, in less than a month’s time, we’ll be starting on our local leadership followed by the¬†overseas one to Nepal. 131 days to graduation and the real working world. it’s a love-hate relationship though, i don’t know whether to look forward to the end of training or just enjoy the moment as it is..

Another trial

so i stopped seeing Dr Soh after my skin got better and i got complacent. contemplated going back but as i don’t see much improvements after my last visit, i decided to try another doctor that has been highly raved online. not sure if it’s a good choice but i guess only time will tell.

for the next 3 weeks..

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