; living life backwards while moving forward


So much tears behind this bottle of perfume le fiancé bought for me 2 years ago; tears of anger, tears of sadness, tears of happy surprise and then tears of guilt. Can’t remember the last time I cried this much..
and it’s all because..

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4 more months

Pinterest, Tao Bao and ‘Budget Brides’ group on Facebook have been my best friends recently. I cannot imagine what I’d have done without them but yet, they are the ones making me jittery about the planning. I keep searching and fantasizing about that dream wedding, sometimes I forget the joy behind it. anyway, I am still freaking out at some point but trying to calm myself down. everything is (or at least most things are) still on track, I believe.. just 4 more months till the big day, time to unwind a little and enjoy the process! (:

End of bond

2 years passed.

9 Feb is such a beautiful date because today marks the end of the training bond which means, I’m free to leave anytime! well, not like I’m planning to do that but it’s good to know there’s nothing to tie you down if there’s a need. can’t say “happy 2nd anniversary” to IB since I’ve been posted out about half a year ago. just have to say, hang on my other half (and other fellow squad mates), next posting coming soon! 💪

Decision on the big day

from the long list of hotels we shortlisted and contacted, we ended up only visiting 3 of them and made our decision. first was Intercontinental Hotel before we went over the BOWS on 8/1/16, next was Regent Hotel the next day on 9/1/16. last was Sheraton Towers during their wedding workshop on 17/1/16. actually on the same day, Regent Hotel was having wedding show too and we had a hard time deciding which to go for. so we decided to go Sheraton first and if it doesn’t make us go WOW, we will head down to Regent and seal the deal. being decisive much? LOL

the wedding date..

After engagement

wedding preparations commenced almost immediately after we got engaged. but there was a whole list of things to do, many things to book and all. I think the bridal studio was one of those that we confirmed first and I think it all started with this Instagram post:

the first of many many steps.

A year of inactiveness

it’s not something new that I’ve left this space untouched for a long time but I just realised it’s been close to a year. I can’t say there’s nothing worth penning down because there is SO much or rather TOO much that has happened over 2016. maybe I should at least pen down my wedding planning journey so that one day, I can read back and judge how much a bridezilla I’ve been. maybe.. just maybe….. :’D

Record high

it’s merely the 2nd month of the new year and i’ve consumed 4 days of my medical leave. been feeling quite under the weather recently which makes me wonder what have happened to my ever-strong immunity system. not a record that i was proud to break though. hopefully the antibiotics this time round can keep me healthy for the rest of the year. CNY’s over in a flash… 2016, please be good. (:

Last of 2015

I think the problem with me is that I don’t like to tell people what I’m thinking (or expecting) sometimes. Then I get upset when they don’t do what I’m expecting them to do. Then I keep it to myself and get sad by myself, with myself. I know we are all not effing mind readers, but I just don’t get why I am like that. Maybe that’s something to change in the coming 2016. So much to reflect on for the past year yet I haven’t found time and energy to really pen it down. Guess it’s not in my list of priorities after all. This year marks a couple of life-changing moments and I’m grateful for everyone who has been part and involved in my life. 

Last few hours of 2015 and am pissed with the persistent headache that has bugged me since last night. Then again, shall shake this negativity off me and welcome the new year with a smile! Hoping countdown at work with my happy bunch of colleagues would make me happier later. 

Anyhows, GOODBYE 2015 AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR 2016!


my first bouquet of flowers from the man; this birthday is, by far, the most memorable. although not 100% surprised, I am still very very touched that everything that I like (colors, numbers, etc) were incorporated into this special moment. and so, I am on my way to becoming a MRS now! feels weird to change saying “my boyfriend” to “my fiance” but yup, I’ll get used to it! 😉

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