Thoughts

Just kinda

i hate what i’m going through right now. i hate feeling so useless towards the deadline that’s so near. an hour of sleep makes me cranky and brings in my giant mood swing as well. i’m sorry to my groupies if i sounded harsh or rude today. i get so duper bitchy when i’m in a foul mood; and i hate myself for that. my brain’s not working anymore and i hate how much MR is killing me..

so much fun i wanted to have. so much that i’ve missed out. so much i’ve sacrificed. i hate having to think of things i shouldn’t be thinking about. i hate feeling so out of place. i’m just kinda tired. but well, hang in there; just a few more hours and i’ll be free-er. i ought to have a good weekend, even if everyone else ain’t free for me.. (:

you’re like a burglar.

Thursday September 25, 2008 0

Zone

this is becoming like a “project sucks” whining zone. i wished i could afford time for proper photos-ful entry. OB is killing me; draining me off all energy. it’s not that i’ve no motivation to do work; i just have no clue at all. i’m pretty sure DC was so much better. staring at the same old thing for hours, flipping through all the supposingly useful books. so much that i WANT to do, but so little that i CAN do. sorry my dear mates, i’m so not productive. one last day to rush. perk up now, tsehwee; clear all useless thoughts please..

despite all these; why do i still…

Sunday September 21, 2008 2

Week-end

rene, you gotta thank me for not posting the unglam photo of yours! (:

random pictures from today’s lecture. the mood on this space has been pretty down lately. but not to worry, a blogaholic like me will not let it die down like that. well, won’t be doing an entry on the BASH though. it’s almost a week late alr and, there are too many photos for me to filter and edit. too lazy, but i’m sure everyone who ought to see those photos would have already done so on facebook. (:

back to normal.

Friday September 12, 2008 2

Next chapter

cubby; looking out..

“when a kin passes on; it is often perceived as the end of a life’s journey. however, we realise it is a beginning of the next chapter for the family.“

– quoted from Western Casket

Friday September 12, 2008 0

Flashback

a photo i managed to find; taken on cousin’s 21st birthday in 2006.
grandma is in purple. (:

been down at the wake for the past couple of nights; keeping grandma company for the last possible time. tmr later will be the day where the beautiful shell of her soul will be transformed into ashes for us to keep. can we smile and bid goodbye?

just some long thoughts.

Thursday September 11, 2008 0

Collapse

i want to say i’m really fine.
putting on a smile while the face awaits to crack.
photos that simply provoke memories.
unworthy thoughts in the wonder.
dreaming of the overly-wishful feelings.
waiting for the impossible.
the heart that seems to hurt.
drawing deadlines with no idea what to do.
so tired yet the mind can’t rest.
exhausted to the extreme.
giddy spells striking even more often.
like going to collapse anytime.
nothing and nobody to fall back on.
that’s probably why i’m still going strong…

anyways, thanks for all the concern messages.
much appreciated.

Tuesday September 09, 2008 2

Sudden goodbye

a party night.
crazy fun.
bad hangover.
shocking sms.
a tearful morning.
solemn expressions.
familiar faces.
the exact same location.
a different atmosphere.
an unbearable scene.
a twist of emotions.
i need more than just some sleep.

goodbye grandma; we love you.

Sunday September 07, 2008 5

Kills

the thought of having so much more to do for projects is killing me. but the best thing i could do to solve the problem was sleeping through my whole afternoon. then, the unbearable gastric pain is killing me too. somebody save me, please..

Thursday September 04, 2008 5

Double?

pretty long day today; imagine us trying our luck to crash class A’s lecture this morning to find the lecturer doing the two chapters he already did with us last week.. solution? find something to occupy our time until 2pm when our very own class B’s lecture starts. -.-” oh well, at least the lecture ended 1.5 hours earlier. anyways, got back our MR proposal today and a weird indication marked on my name amused me..

find out about this Ex2?

Tuesday August 26, 2008 2