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War done

i want to just drown myself..

first thing first, the sticky post for EXAM dates is finally gone! in other words, the wars and tough fights with the modules are over! not gonna think of how i’m going to fare for the papers, we shall all see when 4th December comes. anyways, went ahead with our planned BBQ Horror Night at bernie’s and KTV at halo bar right after the papers. the week shall be continued with council chalet tmr till Friday, followed by date with my DAZ. *grins*

had happy feelings initially about being done with exams but yet, am feeling so empty and directionless now. and then again, still being unable to secure a job makes me feel so uneasy. sometimes there are just choices in life you have to make, give and take, benefits and costs. was frigging pissed with a couple of stuffs earlier on but managed to simmer down a little. been really bad at controlling my emotions these days; seems like i can just flare up anytime over a small matter. *shakes head*

so many things on my to-do list; am so free yet so busy. probably it’s time to cast away some useless thoughts and concentrate on the meaningful issues.

..in sorrows; in a literal way.
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Procastination

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“Procrastination is like a credit card: it’s a lot of fun until you get the bill.”

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quoted from Christopher Parker and i think it’s so so true. although i’m not a user of credit cards, i’m pretty sure it’s quite a lot of fun. but, if it’s really the same, i guess i will experience this feeling when my bill (exam results) comes.. i keep having this thought that it’s ONLY Friday and it’s too early to start studying; i still have tmr, Sunday, and Monday morning. and the idea of almost everyone finishing their papers already makes me feel like mine’s over too. can’t get myself motivated to prepare for the last war. just can’t stop thinking about how i’m going to spend my holidays! *laughs* on a side note, i need a job from 17 November to 19 December. any lobangs?

there are some things you can never seek an explanation.
at times like this, don’t even bother attempting to figure.
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Weights

mend your own roads.

this is terrible. feeling like i’ve a lot weighing down on me. tired of getting rid of the thoughts or merely figuring what’s on my mind. just so exhausted. and of exams, i’ve three more wars to fight. can’t wait for them to be over, yet at the same time, i wish they don’t end so soon. reason being i haven’t secured myself any jobs for the short break before the getaway to Taiwan. what an irony huh..

if only taking baby steps helps.
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Not smart

don’t ask me.

pretty long since i last stepped into a clinic or even consulted a doctor. but yea, been thinking over it for a couple of days and decided to see one. heh. he actually recommended me a duper expensive box of pills which he label as VERY EFFECTIVE for acnes but after much consideration, i settled with another one. oh well, shall see how it goes..

put the words under the cut.

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Of thoughts

will you sacrifice your life for love?

watched Painted Skin on PPS with mummy and sis last night. wasn’t really paying attention to the show initially because i was catching Hot Shot on my laptop at the same time. but after awhile, i just felt that i HAD TO pause my show to concentrate on the former. although the ending was pretty lame, there was this really touching part about the wife’s love for the husband which made me tear. it wasn’t a REALLY awesome show but it’s not too bad a watch (compared to Max Payne).

of Tuesday thoughts..

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One year

it probably wouldn’t be this way.

shall have a little update while my body is digesting the dinner i just had. was just looking at the date when the clock stroked 12am. just a year ago, this date was like my supposed-to-be-very-happy-but-turned-out-to-be-a-very-sad day. firstly, i failed my first TP (if not, i’d be bidding goodbye to that yellow triangle on my boy now man!) then, it.. just wasn’t a good day lah.

but anyways, this year, the day will be good. at least i hope so? WELL, how bad can a day mugging in school get? it wouldn’t because the company is good and the days had always been good. ((: just last night, or rather, just an hour ago, we pampered ourselves with a little movie after mugging session.

20 minutes of horror.

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Pissed

why don’t you lock me up?

why am i home?!

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Behind truths

what lies ahead?

itchy throat; i hate the cough. it’s irritating me.

sometimes it makes me wonder if i should even tell the truth. because it doesn’t help in any way (other than minimizing my guilt for lying). not that i love to club or attend night activities but i just thought i could go and have some fun before exams with my friends. i could easily lie through my teeth and say i’m going for some birthday parties or whatever shit and just get my ass out of the house and back home the next morning. but well, i decided to be honest again and asked for permission. oh well, since i said asking for permission, i probably shouldn’t be complaining right now about this whole issue huh? i know he’s just being protective of me stepping into those clubs or what he perceives as BAD places but.. *sigh* nevermind, i rest my case. i guess can just stay home and be an obedient mugger.

on a side note, i mugged for a couple of hours today! with babe, zhao ting, bernie and teddy at a duper NOT conducive place called ngee ann canteen 1. but not too bad lah. at least i finished writing 50% of the notes for DC! some achievement and it’s a pretty good start.

maybe next time, i’ll just lie.
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Rare case

very feverish..

just had two hours worth of talk with mummy while i lazed around in bed just now. had project meeting at my place this morning and i swear i love my groupies so much! you can never imagine how much we think alike on certain issues and how we started b*tching around like GOSSIP GIRLS! *laughs* but good and bad lah. and oh well, a rare thing on Earth just happened again; tsehwee fell sick.

whines you wouldn’t want to read..

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